Wednesday, November 3, 2010

My life with Meniere's Disease

I just want to set the record straight. I am not writing this for pity or attention. I am writing this with the anticipation of helping someone that might be struggling with a cronic illness. I was diagnosed with Meniere's disease 22 years ago. I literally thought I was going to die. I thought I had a brain tumor, but fast forward ahead, I was finally diagnosed with MD. I have lost all hearing in my right ear and have only 64% word recognition. With that being said it is a struggle within itself everyday just to understand what is being said and trying to understand what people are saying. I battled this for several years and I had small children and life became very difficult during this time, but God was there with me the whole time. Then it was like it just went to sleep. I did not have any trouble with it although I still had the deafness, but I was learning how to deal with it. Life was good and then out of nowhere, the sleeping giant woke up again. Needless to say I was very discouraged but was dealing with it. It became so severe that I decided to have a procedure done to put gentamiacin drops in my hear to kill the nerve. I had an allergic reaction and have suffered from continuous balance issues. I am not free from this disease but know that God is in control. I am starting to change my diet and to try to get a handle on this giant. If you have ever been deep sea fishing and become seasick, that is what this disease feels like. You never know when it is going to hit you and when it does, you are at the mercy of the world. That is why i do not go many places by myself. I refuse to let this disease win, but I am learning how to cope. Yes, there are many things that I am inhibited from doing, but I am learning to take it one day at a time. I wake up every morning and this is what I say, ok God it's me and You today, please help me and help me bring your name glory. Do I always succeed at this? NO, but I strive to live my life pleasing to Him. I am not sure what my lesson is in all of this, but until God chooses to heal me, I will take it with thankfulness. Do I always feel like giving thanks? NO Lets be real, this disease sucks, but it could be worse. I have decided that I will do my part to bring healing to my body by taking better care of myself and eating right. So I guess my posting this article is the start of my healing. I only want your prayers as I navigate my way through this journey. Yes it is a bumpy road, but I know God is right here holding my hand. You may be on a similar bumpy road, but know that God is right near holding your hand. It is a walk of faith and I know my hope is in the Lord. May you be blessed with Gods provision, health, prosperity and peace of mind. I will post regularly of my disease and my feelings and emotions of going through this disease.